I really thought the article was interesting, especially considering the fact that I am thinking about going racing next year. I really wish I actually tried it this year, but I didn't think I was really ready until it was too late.
Once I got bumped to advanced at Beaverun in the first day of a two day weekend, I got this huge rush of mixed emotions. On one hand, I feel like I had finally made it, finally proven that I can master this stuff. On the other hand, even though I knew I had plenty to learn, and plenty of seconds to knock off my time, I didn't have the drive on the 2nd day to push like I had when I was in Intermediate. I felt like I had such a good weekend, that I wanted to quit while I was ahead, and before I destroyed a perfectly good motorcycle. I ended up packing in a little early with a good smile on my face, but not nearly as big as the one when I got bumped from beginner to Intermediate. I figured that this was because I didn't have something to look forward to working towards.
For me, when I was talking to my dad on the long drive home (former NASCAR crewman), he told me that he thinks its probably time for me to go racing, see what I got. I agreed, and ever since I've been planning out what I need to do to go racing next season. I never even imagined that I could "win" let alone not getting my ass handed to me. I constantly question as to whether or not I can make it at the next level. I think we all do that at some time or another. We all crave and desire that NEXT level... That next level of satisfaction...
I guess my point is, I think the disappointment in racing, will be just one part of what will keep me going. How good can winning feel if you've never felt defeat? I felt disappointed when I crashed on my first trackday, but I pushed myself to ride the next day and contemplate the mistakes I had made. I was disappointed that on my first Intermediate day at CMP, that Intermediate didn't seem it was all it's cracked up to be. That's why I wanted to be advanced. And when I finally made it to advanced, I was disappointed in myself when it took two days for me to figure out NJMP rather than being "ready" after the morning of the first day. That disappointment makes the potential for future success all the more EXCITING.
:-D